Reasons why I need to go to bed when I’m supposed to.
Q:Do you ever think that you push people away because you're so focused on sex? It's all you talk about. (you want people to send you pics, sexting buddys, etc)
All the time. It’s all I talk about on tumblr, because thats what my tumblr is mostly for. An outlet for my sexual urges, and a place for me to post my writing. I mean, its in my tumblr name. In real life, no I’m not nearly as sexual as this. And even so, I don’t really need random anons to psychoanalyze me considering you don’t evn have the guts to say it with a face attached.
wow im really fucking horny at the moment
I have an anger problem. Not the traditional hit everything, scream, etc one. But the opposite. I keep everything inside because I don’t wanna risk hurting anyones feelings or anything like that, and it just eats away at me. At random times, the feeling will return to me and I’ll just get so angry at something in hindsight. I don’t even know why I’m like that. Well, I kind of do.
I have such a fear of being alone and such abandonment issues that I try my hardest to keep everyone in my life. So I just don’t say anything. Ever. I get mad and just drop it. Plus every time I do try and bring something up, it ends in disaster. I mean, I really think I’m the only person who could lose a friend with benefits over something like that. In any case, I just can’t help but sit here and wonder when someone is going to leave my life. It happens so often with everyone that, well fuck I can’t help it.
Plus, I have issues with asking for help. Just like all my life people have relied on me or expected things from me and its like part of me feels like I’m letting everyone down by asking for help. Silly, I know. But its the truth.
I just need to work on stop keeping everything inside. I have no outlook. I don’t really want to talk to anyone about it. I bought a punching bag to lose weight, and to take out some of this anger I have in me. I might also get a journal or an anonymous tumblr and start writing things down that makes me angry. Its not healthy for me to feel like this so often.